It's beautiful here In this dry sandy river, In the hot blue light Of the pale sweating moon. The stars are all hanging On bent silver paper clips, The sun will be rising But I'll be long gone.
There's nothing here but hot white sand and broken glass. How many miles away is the ocean? 'Cos I'm tired of crawling on my hands and my knees, I can't remember what standing up feels like. But when I get there I'm gonna dive right in, Cold salt water On my grateful skin. I'll take a stick And write your name in the sand, Then I'll watch while the waves Obliterate it....
Wish I could collect Every tear you've ever shed In a silver plate engraved With a picture of Tara. I'd leave it in the sun, Watch the water drying up, Then I'd wash the salt away In a cool and flowing river. It could go home to the sea, Leave your eyes all grey and fresh, Leave your soul unbruised And open to the light.
If I leave the party now, I think I could leave without regrets. I think I could hear the door latch closed behind me, And walk down your cold grey stone steps In the rain, To the empty dark street with a smile on my face, And your smooth and sandy, hot dark taste On my tongue.
I know my heart's broken in seventeen places, I know I've got scars that will never heal. But the blood is dripping and staining my t shirt, Your lips kiss the wounds, your teeth scrape my soul.
I was ten when these songs were popular, "You Belong To Me," "Silhouettes On The Shade." What a colossal load of antedeluvian bullshit! I can't imagine living with a woman who would let herself be treated like this. I'd rather die alone in the sandy cold and windy desert. I'm so glad Emily knows how much I love her battered broken all forgiving soul.
This rain at 2:30 am reminds me of a night on Greylock Mountain in 1970, when Jill and I awoke in the middle of the night to raindrops in our eyes, huddled in my sleeping bag under the northern lights. The city below us was eaten by cold blue green fire while I fumbled with the buttons on her blue denim shirt
Old time rock n roll playing soft in the tingling silver air on this hot dusty summer night.... And I'm sitting in the schoolyard with my friends in 1960, just home from my first rock concert, And I knew I'd never get enough....
And I'm sitting in a bar in Queens in 1967 on the night I graduated high school, drinking with my friends, a cheerleader sitting in my lap....
And I'm sitting on a cliff over Seneca Lake in 1971, my arm around Jill's shoulder. The sun is going down, and we hated to put our clothes back on....
And I'm walking through Central Park on the morning after Halloween in 1975, holding hands with Victoria, all our questions answered the night before....
And I'm on Suzanne's back porch on a cold night in 1980, her hand so small in mine, her eyes so happy....
And I'm sleeping on my sofa with Joyce in 1988, a week before her 21st birthday, her long black hair cascading over my chest.
And I'm walking through Fort Tryon Park with sweet Emily in 2006, long before I knew she would be the last true love of my life.... God bless old time rock n roll....
I live near the ocean, which keeps me sane in a tidal way. I have three best friends: a beautiful and talented artist, a gorgeous and loving gothic pixie, and an adorable ghost who has become my soul mate and the love of my life. I guess you could say I'm blessed.